Post Thankful

I know why I have chosen to be away in Thailand etc during the holidays the past few years... they are simply exhausting! I definitely signed up for the big turkey day , which was awesome.... I think the big dinner the next day put me over the edge.

Happy: me and bff being lazy all day and thai massage

Bitter: coming home and having 6 drunk friends roll in for dinner all at once buzz killing my mellow. Bitter I couldn't sleep at all last night and missed our day trip to santa barbara today.

Getting Thankful

Who Doesn't Love Vacation Makeout Sessions?

I thought I would write about a bitter/happy hawaii vacation which led to my sister and i getting into a fight. I thought I would write about being laid-off from Totalbeauty.com. I thought I would write about the man with the staff infection that tripped while crutching past my car and clipped my mirror off my driver's side door at the dentisit's parking lot. This was after the dentist appointment where I was told I need a new crown. I thought I would write about all those bitter things. But hey, I got to laugh with sophie and giggle in the car when we were lost in Hawaii. I got laid-off but I got a severence and it was time anyway. I don't have a staff infection. The mirror is replaceable for $200. I can afford the crown and the last of my benefits will cover half of it.

This is a week for being thankful. Being happy. Happy I got to go to Hawaii and have time with the kids. Happy I got to have a makeout session with a cute surfer boy and stay in a totally bitchin' hotel. Happy I got a small severence. Happy I have a spectacular family and wonderful friends. Happy I have my health. Grateful.

All Is Good At The Wood

The In and Out

Hydroxy Cut , Alli Or In And Out?

We haven't decided which would be best , so we started with an in and out double double.

Obviously.

Aloha Finn James Lucas

The Mar Vista Crew welcomes it's latest member Finn James Lucas 

who slid on the scene this morning at 2am!

Sending big love to new mom and dad Dorian and Lucas...get ready for
the roller coaster!!!

xoxoxo

A Move Towards Ordinary

If you asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up , I don't think I much cared about what it was that I was going to BE. What mattered more,  is that I surpassed "ordinary" and

became one with what it meant to be Extraordinary. 

I don't know where this came from or why, but it's always been.

It seems after 40 years of living,  extraordinary and I are close friends now.  I have pushed in as many ways as possible to hit that place in everything i do or at least aim for that -- perhaps I have even forced extraordinary to be in my life even when I didn't care much for her to be around and maybe she wanted to have no part of me, but she always shows up. She is a part of how I walk on , over and around the Earth and I am familiar with her every reaction --for my action to be close to her. 

I hear words embracing my creativity , my see and sprout project is,  paintings, my business, writing --all of it. I should feel overwhelming GRATITUDE,  however presently , I feel  this blank feeling when i hear it because i think deep inside I dont get it, or really get it, and what it means really at all, I have no idea what it means to be anything but what I am, and maybe I should explore the other ways of being.

I am honored BEYOND honored to know those I love appreciate my efforts, and those I dont know as well. I think today right now as I walk through being in a place and time where there is soooo much uncertainty , about my business, finances, the goals for see & sprout, my writing, art , or whatever is next.

 

I simply feel tired. tired of the fast train I've been on towards the land of extraordinary and I want to break up with it just for now until I feel ready to take her on with all of my being again.

My being is tired. 

very very tired

and spent 

and maybe even broken.

I want to be UNextraordinary.

I want to ignore every magical idea that slips into my head

do nothing 

about anything

do nothing relating to things that have to date made me more than ordinary.

turn off the extraordinary switch and just be regular.

i want the look of expectation in peoples eyes to slip away for today 

the requests for creativity to just be quiet for a little bit.

and let me think.

or maybe even not think at all.

I want to just be. 

Some Things I Know For Sure

In a time where I feel so much is unknown .....and the tide of things are curving every which way but the way I WANT them to go, or THINK they should go. I am forced to sit and think about what I know for sure. To keep me still . focused.  and just a reminder to be gentle with me for today.

1. There are defining moments in  life, and some I have no control over.

2. When I let go,  I let what is meant to happen, happen.

3. If you do what you've always done, you'll get what you've always gotten.

4. I have to color outside the lines to be authentic to who I am most of the time.

5. I still don't know what I want to do ,  but I know what kind of woman I want to become.

6. Love confuses me and inspires me all in one breath.

7.  If we can think of what we would all do for free, everyday , that's what we should be doing for our professions, that's called passion and I need that.

8. Sometimes my plan is not as big and wide and the plan God has for me , so  when I actually get out of my own way , the gifts happen.

9.  When in doubt, don't.

10. You can't be in love with someone's "potential" you have to love who they are right now, today.

11. You are a reflection of who you surround yourself with/by.

12.I am a survivor.

13. I need to go away , have alone time , replenish  and just be in that way that I do, and often 

so that I can come back and be present and available to those I love and want to spend time with.

14. I like kissing someone who is a great kisser.

15. When I sit quietly , it comes to me eventually.

16. I need to learn to let go.

17. Be careful what you ask for ,  it eventually shows up.

18. Ideas are miracles when executed.

19. Indecision is decision.

20 . This too shall pass.

The question continues...

And a Perfectly Timed Email Slides In....

....It's really great when you feel like shit, and you're getting broke and ready to throw in the towel and move to mexico or Australia , you know, maybe marry a bra boy get knocked up and live in maroubra forever with no direction except to maybe get some laundry done , have sex and hit the surf, drink beer ... live the dream oz style.

And then you get an email like this below to remind you , maybe just not the beer part, keep just a little direction....



Just had to pass the compliment onto you!

Meg

Begin forwarded message:
From: Miranda Zanzig <
Date: November 4, 2008 5:23:33 PM PST
To: Megan Bibbo <megan
Subject: RE: the see & sprout project seeking used digital cameras.

Thank you for sending that, Meg. I LOVED Stacy at your wedding and seeing what's she's done with this project (And seeing some of her artwork...) She's an amazing woman!! I want to be her when I grow up!
I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND!! We'll connect at one point or another!! HA HA!!
XOXOXOXO!!


Miranda Zanzig
District Manager
Arbonne Independent Consultant

A Splash of Aloha Is Headed To The White House!!

44th President of The United States of America  Barak Obama!!!!!!

Love To Obama

BFF duo send much love to Obama's family and the loss of his grandmother.

 Such a sad day that she won't see him become President of The United States Of America today.

  I knew when she passed pre election that,  well,  he simply would win. That was the little light from above letting us all know.

May Phin be giving her a big hug and talking story with her today over some yummy food.